Benefits . . .

they are good times . . .

I the ben-ies

 

-Tuesday

January
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year? **ofcourse
2. Who kissed you at midnight? **nobody
3. Does it snow where you live? **where i lived in jan? no . ..
4. Do you like hot chocolate? **ya i had it that nite .... and i love it
5. Have you ever been to times square to watch the ball drop? **one day

February
1. Who was your valentine in 2005? **Leif
2. What did your valentine get you? **Some flowers and balloons and a kiss
3. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?**no couldnt aford that

March
1. Are you Irish? *hell yeya!
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day? **hell ya i do
3. What do you do for st. pattys day? **just kick it

April
1. Do you like the rain? **love it!!*
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year? **kinda like a everday thing . . . this year i was supposed to pull the prank of the year on Brittney but kylie had to fuck it up :(
3. Do you get tons of candy on easter? ** . . . .this year i didnt... really go on a hunt . . .

May
1. What's your favorite kind of flower? **Daisys, Gerbera (or whatever) daisies and Dahlias
2. Do you like the spring? **its nice . . .
3. Finish the phrase: when in rome: **Meet HELLA ITALIAN MEN AND GET HELLA LAID! .... and visit the collusium . . . of course!
5. What would you think of as a spring color? Lavender and light green


June
1. What year do you graduate from school? **well hopfully i'll get my associates in 2007
2. Did you go on any vacations last June? **Naa i moved to WA or had just moved there and started College


July
1. What did you do on the 4th of July? **Kicked it with David and watched fire works with him and just walked around
2. Went on any vacations during this month? **nope

August
1. Did you do anything special to end off your summer? ** the end of August is me birthsday so i went to a Yankees/Mariners game and got a new boyfriend then . . . *sigh* that was a screw up .. both the game and richard
2. What was your best memory? . . . The game
3. Do you go swimming a lot in the summer?** well right before i left for WA . . .i went to the beach everyday ... but I've never swam in washington yet . . . .
4. Do you go to the beach a lot? **went just yesterday (thats cos im here at home in Hawaiia on VACATION!)


September
1. Did you attend school/college in '05?: ** college
2. Who is/was your favorite teacher? ** OH Jeff For sure! Even last quarter he was my favourite ... hes THEEEEE shit!
3. Do you like fall better than summer? Ya i do . Autumn is my favourite time of year


October
1. What was your favorite halloween costume ever? *sigh* . . . i dont know . . . . Probably Wednesday adams .. who I was this year.. that was fun hahaha
2. What's your favorite candy? MIKE AND IKE!!
3. What did you dress up like this year? Wednesday ;)


November
1. Whose house do you usually go to for thanksgiving? ** NOt that big of a celebration for me and my famly but .. we did kinda do something this year ..i was at home with my dad and my step mom in WA
2. Do you like stuffing? ** FO Damn SHO!**
3. What are you thankful for? **Life

December
1. Have you ever been kissed under mistletoe? *sigh* . . . no i havent
2. What do you want this year for christmas? **i got what i wanted .. to see my family**
3. What's the best present you ever got for Christmas? **spending time with family and friends.
4. Do you like cold weather? **I do actually
5. How would you rate your year (1-10)? **thats a hard one .. cos I mean i learn everday and this year i've learnt SO much . . . like sam cooke says .. change is gonna come and it does and i wasnt afraid and ...it was aawesome cos i learnt so much but ... still somethings missing.. id have to give this year a 7 or an 8 . . . . . . . yaa an 8

So im crazy in love with this guy

i get all stupid around him ...

and . . . i pretty much asked him finally . . .why havent you kissed me yet?

and he wrote back:

You know how hard it is to answer that? There's so much that I just dont even comprehend about myself. And its always easier to say I dont know. But I just dont know what to say. Your gorgeous, your classy, we can have deep conversations and at the same time just bullshit about nothing. Your sweet and supportive and seemingly perfect. I dont know why. Maybe I just feel so far below you. What do you think?

then we talked about it . . . . . and decided tomorrow we'll hang out... well tomorrow is today and ...

o my goodness im like a little girl ..... i have to call him when im ready to go out and uh .... omy god ....

O____O

 

im such a girl

 

SUCH A girl! ... im getting all butterfly-ish and ... i cant wait to see him ... oh god i've been wanting him to kiss me for the longest time ... and he said you know what.. tomorrow i'll take you out we'll have fun and talk and i'll give you your kiss

 

Goddammit! GODDAMMMIT!! I feel like ive never been kissed... holy shit when was the last time a man kissed me?? like KISSED me ........ thom doesnt count.....WOW .. back in August!!! omgad im deprived

 

I need to get some .. bad!

 

-tuesday (Lex)

The opposite of war is not peace . . .its creation

 

LA VIE BOHEME

 

okay im done

 

i . . .am . . . stupid

 

aye L.A. . . . i fuckin dont like you!

 

-tuesday

Do you feel like this Pich?

Its hard to explain but  . . . i feel like im always on you and . . . so this is just me looking at me and me looking at you

 

Rising up, that senstion
Building up, unvented frustration
Words unspoken
Covert and unopen
Speak up so to be shotdown and broken
Wet, your eyes
Sweat, and lies
Trials have been tried
Factors never defined
You feel unjustified
Left in the dust feeling like so
Empty tank, or running on low
Blow, Blow me my demise
Treat me like it, So i cry
Treat me with kindness, kill me slowly
So sweet . . .
Treat me with hostility, I'll fight to feel defeat
Talk to me friend
Dont chastise me Friend
Dont babtise me friend
you cant save my soul
in my whole lyes the hole
The void you try to fill
I try to evade
The jades you use to kill
Spill deep in the chills you send through my spine
Seep deep into that heart and mind thats you so
Futily try to define
But realise I take it all in my own time
Good timing friend
Good timing friend
Gets me to a fine end
I'm an old soul, and certainly will do on my own
Patron, you're not my patron
You're not my Saint
or my God or my lover or my Wife
You're important
but you are not my life
The life I'll live
But I'll accept what you can give
Give
Give to me
Help me out
Ayuda Me
But don't Judah me
You cant sell me for thirty Shecks
Thats my business
Let me do what i do,
So you can skip the tree
Dont hang yourself with the rope of guilt
Cos what happens to me is not your Quilt
to sew
Dont sew
Just stand . . . understand

 

-Xelias

sometimes . . . i dont even know why i keep this up . . . i mean . . . i guess . . .itsmore of a personal thing well not ... personal but

 

just . . . for me . . i guess

 

not many people read it anyway

 

and thats okay

 

i like my blogging and i like . . . i dunno . . . just another place to put my stuff down

or up

or whatever

Kindness kills . . . its a ironic and wonderful practice

do it

 

-tuesday (LEX)

weBLOG

i think i just realised . . . blog

 

weblog?

 

yaaaa

 

shit im tired

 

-Tuesday